Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Ambedo

Ambedo (n). a kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details (Source: Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows)


it is early morning, the sky
is a mild pink, infused with trickles
of gold that crawl from the horizon. 
wispy clouds consume the sky,
like feathers of silvery cotton. the streets
are empty, the silence paves way 
for the music of the birds. the air smells fresh, 
free of the columns of smoke that sully 
it during the day. the breeze is gentle,
invigorating on my waking skin, ushering me 
into the realm of full consciousness. 
it is going to be a beautiful day.

it is nearing midnight. stars are sprinkled 
across the sky, easily ignored in the 
presence of the full moon. my ears catch 
the hooting of a concealed owl and the 
muffled voices of neighbors. I smell the 
remnants of smoke. The air is still 
and warm on my features, slowly 
lulling me into sleep.

at least these sensory feasts are noticed from
time to time; especially when ensnared in
melancholic ruminations. a lack of momentary
happiness can lead to beautiful
sensations. 

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Anne

My poem was published in Literary Orphans! 'Anne' is inspired by Josh Schlachter's lovely poem 'An Open Letter to Anne Frank', which was a leading poem in Issue 2 of Moledro Magazine. In my old school, Anne Frank's diary was a piece of required reading. However, it would constantly be mocked at by students reluctant to study the coursework, hence prompting me to write this poem months later.


you poured, regurgitated your tangled
thoughts while bombs infused the chilly air, quelling
romantic urges and wishing people could
read your mind. a survivor made sure your
powerful words did not die like your soul, that
the pages did not crumble to dust and fire did
not cradle your dreams.

decades later. gem-studded glasses with
weed in back pockets, images of celebrities
tucked away like golden leaves. your words, a
hopeful paean, feel their bare skin and pendulous
parts, while they sneer at you and wish your diary

had never been treasured. you are a girl. but now,
you are an assignment, not a fractured smile bound
into a legacy. in posterity, they laugh at your
desires, at the shard of pain, a yellow star in the
prejudiced skies. adults with gray lorgnettes and
a longing for solitude pace by, giggles are stuffed into
ripened pages, smirks are masked by a paltry
attempt at respect. your legacy, sullied by the

apathy of people who associate your name with
boredom. your soul, a menorah of faith in goodness,
is not the silvered memory it was born to be. your voice,
a shofar of youthful power, is not the sought out vocalization
it should have been. your words have become a classroom
monotony, people slinking other people’s answers
onto their tongues. better to remain forgotten and
protected, than snickered at by students who don’t know


the feeling of cherishing each day, grateful that you’ve survived

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Election

shock, fear, uproar on the streets
as people confront the dismal future that awaits.

people with dark skin, different beliefs, histories
that burst with light and color and beauty - terror.

my mind in a whirl, unable to articulate precise
thoughts about the man that will lead my country

for the next four years. confusion.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Zlata

innocent, a drop of water in an
ocean of tar.      ensnared, vulnerable in
fear yet powerful on parchment, ink flooding
the crevices, molecules of darkness slithering
across a page, bringing light to an era

of misery. write what scares you, goes the
old motif.

write what makes your curls stand, what makes
your eyes dilate and freckles tremble. easy for
them to say when their greatest dread isn't
being crushed under mountains of cement
and hurt, praying
that someone will find them and bring them
back to life.

innocence swirls, a drift of chocolate in
a cup of coffee. at least you are remembered
in your youth, not as a spirit that never had
the chance to

exist.

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Change

My poetry anthology won a Silver Award in the 2016 Ocean Awareness Student Contest! Read the poem below!


 Oil on Water

Thin-film interference is beautiful—a myriad
of iridescent hues in nacreous swirls,
oil on water.

Rainbows on the ground, white light blooming
into an infinity of harmony; monotony morphing
into color, lazily waltzing to the dance of opulence.

Oil on water.

Tons of black, pungent oil gushing in relentless
eddies, pouring darkness into a sparkling realm of
innocence. Spewing death into waves of life.

Mother, a little girl said. What are those colorful
puddles in the water? Mother looked grim.
Runoff of oil from a factory, sweetheart.
The girl took a step forward, cautiously, deliberately—
saw the swirls of oil spread their spectral wings in the
endless blue, reflecting shards of sunlight,
glittering in devastating tones.

The patterns are kind of pretty, she thought. Until
she looked around, saw a fish floating in the water,
nestled against the ripples of faint brownish-red.
Motionless, unseeing,
dead.

Horrified, she yelped, fell against her mother’s
arms. The lustrous opals glimmering in the sea
were no longer beautiful. They were deadly,
venom down unsuspecting throats.
Inhaled by unwary, heedless noses. Injected
into guiltless blood-streams, absorbed through
sinless skins.

Oil on water.


             Awake

Her name was Hope. Three years later, she watched
the news—saw the plight of the oceanic realm.
Birds enmeshed in glops of oil, struggling
to breathe the fresh, unadulterated air. Pelicans
mired in hopelessness, unable to fly. Too
overwhelmed by the pollution around them, contrasted
with the glistening purity of the sky.  

Fish strewn across the waters, in a line of
agony. Like little grains of rice in a glass of
water and soy sauce. Open mouths, as though
they had been gasping for breath in the last
few seconds of their abridged lives.

A pipeline had burst, spilling its toxins into the
Earth’s azure treasuries. Human negligence,
Hope thought. Errors at the expense of
natural, indispensable life. Drilling procedures
in the sea, spilling oil, petroleum—tarnishing
the sparkling blue, leaving behind a darkened
ache.

Ocean pollution, everywhere. Death, horror
permeating throughout the fabric of
the globe. Oil seeping into the plumage of birds
once majestic, of birds with feathers once fine. Preening
birds ingest the venom, choke to the underworld.

Rubbing her hands together, Hope stood up. Tied
her loose strands of hair, threw her
shoulders back. Felt like her mellifluous voice had
been amplified by a thousand times, as she said
to herself: within my power, within my range,
within whatever resources I have nestled in my palms;
within my abilities, but beyond my dreams,
from now on I strive to make a change.  



           Change

Hope stepped into a lab, weeks of
rigorous training trailing behind her. Oil-soaked
creatures, bereft of an identity. Just a shapeless
mass, entrenched in the shackles of loss. Massaging
a pelican in warm vegetable oil, ridding it of
its blackened smears.

With the dexterity of an expert, with the tenderness
of a mother, Hope cleaned the bird’s tainted
plumage, watching with delight as its feathers
reverted back to their natural, lightened hue. Watched
as the innocent bird regained its ability to hunt,
to feed itself, to fly,
to live.
Without a family, but with the chance
of starting a new life in the wild—destroyed by
the oil spill, but offered a chance at
resurrection. Hope watched injured, asphyxiated
sea turtles regain their ability to breathe, to
swim with the power of their species. Held,
massaged, promised to save them; never
forgot her vow to make a change.

Campaigns which began as messages written
with fluorescent markers, on tattered pieces of
cardboard. Shouted on the streets
in a quiet, desolated neighborhood, a few ears willing
to listen, never willing to act.

Campaigns which blossomed into a line of
supporters, messages spray-painted on unending
lines of pale blue cloth; pictures of birds drenched
in oil, of fish floating—unseeing, devoid of life.
Pictures of the ugly thin-film interference on
pristine waves of water. Discharge from factories,
accidents from oil tankers. Hundreds conflated
into a single voice, brimming with
passion; ears pricking up, emotion welling
in once dispassionate eyes, indifferent façades.

As lines of supporters cleaned up fallen
animals, raised awareness in voices immaculately
arranged; thought Hope—I have begun
to make a change.   


          Power

Years older, years of advocacy trailing behind her,
helping her speak before stern officials, spectacles
glinting menacingly.

A petition—gleaming, beautiful paper:
stop offshore drilling!
Thousands of names, emotions,
tears. In response to death, illness, devastation. Petitions—
for leak detection devices, regular inspections.
Prevention is better than cure, her eyes read,
glittering with a powerful, purposeful light.

We have one world, Hope said. Water is what
has birthed us, what has distinguished the earth
from a boiling sphere of fire and rock. Train
your workers, station emergency personnel
in the devastating case of an oil spill! Double
hulls in marine vessels. Thick-hulled tanks.
Raise awareness, rally the ranks. If a spill occurs—
evacuation zones, equipment, love and care!

Urbanization is all very well… but progress
coupled with environmental destruction? You may
believe that the globe is developing: but continue
at this terrifying pace, aspire to stay ahead
of the race—and there shall be no future for my children,
no future for yours. Just a swirling mass of
human superiority, mingled with the past
souls of innocent marine life, and the swirls of
leftover oil.

The crowd behind Hope murmured,
excited by the prospect of positive change; moved
by the presence of environmental advocacy—
powerful advocacy, words and actions to
save, to propagate, beautiful lives.  

Hope stood tall, unflinching. Thinking of the pelicans
she had bathed, thinking of the ones that had passed
away into the arms of oblivion. Remembering
the day she discovered oil spills, how she had believed
that its twirling motifs could be beautiful. A life of exposure
to ocean pollution.

But she was born to make a change.


 Aftermath

She walked alone, basking in the solitude; her
silvery-white hair fluttering before heavy
eyes. Dry lips widening into a smile
as she saw young children running about,
next to water so fresh, pure—it made her heart
swell with joy, with pride. Hope’s happiness
steadfastly refused to subside.

I’ve been a little, naïve girl, she thought. Who
blossomed into a student, an environmental activist,
a petitioner, a legislator. But I am still Hope—
for I help breed hope when there is none. I’ve helped
save waters that were thought too tarnished
to be saved, I’ve helped the forthcoming
generations of animals.

She went near the water, laughed as sunlight
smiled off its rippling crests. Swirls of rainbow hues
can be lovely, but nothing is more beautiful than
an untainted blue.

My life is almost over, but I can pass away
in peace; for across my lifespan, across its
range—
I know that I have made a
change.